We were on vacation in Colorado Springs when I found out.
This is what I wrote the morning I found out:
So this morning (08/17/2015) around 7:15am I found out that I am pregnant! I want to write down how I am feeling!! So when we were packing for this trip I knew that it was going to be crunch time while we were there. I took a test the Wednesday before we left knowing it was very early and sure enough it came back negative. If I didn't start my cycle on Sunday I would allow myself to take another test on Monday morning before we left to head home. I have to ration those suckers because they are expensive! Ha Ha! So I packed some feminine products and one pregnancy test for the trip. And I really hoped I would not have to use those feminine products!
When we got to the house we are staying at on Thursday I had some mild but very noticeable cramps. I am pretty much like a clock when it comes to my cycle so I thought it was weird to be cramping. They only lasted a little while and then went away. I had read that when the egg implants it can cause cramping so I was hopeful that that is what I felt. We went about our trip but in my head I was counting down the whole time!! I did not want our trip to end but I did want to take that test!!
When Sunday came I was nervous all day. It's really intimidating to not want your body to do something that it is supposed to do! Haha! Talk about lack of control! But Sunday came and went and nothing happened. I was so afraid it was going to come in the night and I would wake up and be so sad. I kept telling myself that it would be ok if I wasn't pregnant. We have only been trying a couple of months. But this time just felt different, I knew I would have been extremely sad if the test was negative.
Every night of our trip I dreamed about taking the test. They were weird dreams and I don't really remember all of the details but it was clear that pregnancy was very much on my mind. This morning I woke up early to take the test. I didn't want to do it too early because I knew if it was negative I wouldn't have been able to go back to sleep. So about 7:15 I snuck into the bathroom. I locked the door and took the test. During the three minutes I tried to pray but I didn't really know what to pray. I found myself saying 'Jesus please let it be positive'. But then I was like that's silly... at this point its either going to be or not! So I just said Jesus over and over and I said that it would be ok if it was negative. The timer went off and I went to check and OH MY GOODNESS... there were 2 lines!! I gasped and covered my mouth and just stood there staring at it! I started shaking and crying! I sat down on the floor and just stared at the test. I. Am. Pregnant. This has been my life long dream and it is finally happening!
I hid the pee stick in my makeup bag and went downstairs to throw away my trash so nobody would see it. My dad was downstairs and he said 'Good Morning Pooh Bear!' I told him good morning. He said 'It's Amanda day!' (I had deemed yesterday Adam day as a joke because we did everything he wanted to do.) It was funny because in my head I was like 'Yes it sure is!' I came back upstairs and am trying to figure out how I want to tell Micheal. Part of me just wants to show him the stick when he wakes up... but another part of me wants to give him some kind of gift and tell him in a really cool way!!
So now I am just laying here waiting on my family to wake up. I want to shout it from the roof tops but I also want to cherish this time of just me knowing. Me and God are the only ones that know I have a child! I am going to be a mommy and Micheal is going to be a daddy!
Thank you Jesus for this incredible gift! I give this child to you right now! You know everything about him or her and you know the plans you have for him or her! That makes my heart so glad!
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Miss Sarah just woke up from her nap so I will stop right there for now. On my next post I will share how I broke the news to my hubby! :-)
This is the bathroom where I found out! :-) I knew we most likely would never be at that house again so I had to take a pic! The moment my life changed took place in that room! Sacred ground people!! :-)
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